POP Goes the circuit breaker

I woke up this morning about 4 a.m. and could not go back to sleep so I was watching television and all of a sudden I heard a really loud POP and my bed went flat in my computer shut down, the TV was still working and luckily I had just turned up the heater so I like to do was wait until 7 a.m. when Madonna came in for work.  She unplugged my bed and a yellow cord was black so I was really leery of plugging the back end somewhere else but I didn't really have a choice so we plugged it in, got me dressed and up in the chair and by the time I got outside Keith was just leaving so I took Brodie for a couple of laps around the park and stopped at my mom's to see her she could come down and see which breaker had popped so I could turn my computer back on.  I thought Jerry had left for work on his motorcycle but I looked out my window and saw him pulling his car out so I rushed outside and luckily he was just putting his garbage cans away and he agreed to come and rescue me one more time.  He found the breaker that had tripped and turned it back on but then my mom touched the outlet and it popped really loud once again.  The other day as I was going into the dance room I ran into the outlet and apparently pushed the metal protective cover against the prongs on the plug and that's what caused the breaker to trip.  Jerry got that fixed and then helped Madonna make Macadamia Nut Banana Bread in the kitchen before he left for work.  It called for sour cream but since I didn't have any Jerry brought over some ricotta cheese so we made the substitute, it smelled killer and I cannot wait to try.  Jerry came back by a little while ago to try some of the banana bread but unfortunately we left it down at my mom's, we took it there to bake while we were making labels for the baby shower invitations.  I told him that tomorrow I was going to make two more loaves and I will make sure him and Liz get to try some.

Just as Jerry was leaving Vanessa showed up with baby Luana and we had a nice visit and printed out the invitations for the baby shower, they turned out SO cute.

I went to Costco, my favorite place to go, and actually held it down to what I REALLY need... well I tried to anyway.

Charlie called after I got into bed to give me the update on the House, it sounds better everyday, so I asked him if he could send out one of his electricians to see what we need to do about this plug, he said he would send somebody out tomorrow, I love sometimes how stuff just seems to work itself out one way or another.

Everyone is sick...

On Monday madonna called in sick and Aiesha said that she thought she might be coming down with something and yesterday she wasn't feeling better.  I told her that if she was sick to not come to work and to give me a call in the morning so I will know not to get up.  This morning where we were doing some personal care the phone rang but nobody left a message so I assumed that Aiesha was not coming in so I didn't get up, it turned out it was just Rosy calling to say that Aiesha wasn't going to come in until later.  I really have a lot to do this week and it's very frustrating to have to stay in bed when your mind won't stop thinking about what you should be doing plus I had to cancel Rich, the dog trainer.

I've been boxing up my DVDs to send to my brother in Georgia and I think I only need about two more boxes.  It is so hard to find boxes anymore.  Remember when you used to be able to go behind any store or business and pick them up by the dumpster?  Now because of a liability businesses do not want anybody to take their boxes, they would rather cut them up.

Vanessa came by today with baby Luana, she is so cute.  We are trying to coordinate a baby shower and I think we finally got it all figured out.  While she was here we made some invitations and decided to have it here on March 8th.  That's only about two weeks away.  She decided that she would like to have an afternoon buffet so Costco here we come, Costa is a great place to get stuff for sandwiches, chips, pickles and olives and of course snacks and desserts.

I have a bunch of bananas that I got at Costco and they're getting brown so I found a really good recipe for Macadamia  Nut Banana Bread, doesn't that sound delicous?

Tony

Yesterday was a really exhausting day.  Every three weeks I go to Moorpark Health Clinic to get my Suprapubic catheter changed by Tony, I have known Tony since my injury 13 years ago.  When I called to see about my appointment because I thought I was about to do they told me that I had missed my appointment, I did not miss my appointment I just met Tony at Valley Medical Center to have a change because he was really busy that week.  I asked them to make me an appointment and they made an appointment for 9:30 a.m. which is really hard to get dressed and into my chair by then but I thought I would try it.  They told me that Tony had changed his hours and that I wasn't going to be able to see him in the afternoon anymore.  When I got to Moorpark they told me that my appointment was asked Valley Medical Center.  A computer leaves you a message a couple of days before your appointment and it said Moorpark Health Clinic.  They went ahead and canceled my morning appointment and rescheduled me for 2:30 p.m. appointment so I told them that I would come back.  When I went back at 2:30 p.m. Tony said that it was a mistake and that he did not change his hours at Moorpark, what a huge relief.

After my morning appointment cancellation my mom and I went to the mall and ordered our new appliances and got something to eat.  Of course we left all of the information at home so instead of driving home in getting it we tried to remember what we had picked out and when we got home and compared it we did a really good job.

SOLD...

I noticed last night at my arms were getting sore, it felt like my muscles have been tensed up for a long time.  Yesterday I was going to get up because they still have a lot of cleaning up to do for the open house tomorrow but everything took longer than it was supposed to and I ended up staying in bed.  By the time my morning caregivers left I was having an anxiety attack, thank God for Xanax.  It's really frustrating sometimes to have to lay here and know that you can't get up and everything that needs to be done is not going to be done. when I have an anxiety attack all of the the muscles in my arms tense up and today I can hardly even move them.  It does help to put a towel in the dryer but it makes the rest of your body awfully warm.  The good news is... everything is getting done in my house looks great.  Hopefully after resting all day my arms will still better tomorrow because I do have to get up and out of here during the open house.  It looks like it might rain so probably just go over to the mall and watch a movie and eat mall food which will be a really nice change from all the fruit and oatmeal and salads that I have been eating.

I feel a little bit better today but my arms are still sore.  Maybe it's because I have been laying on my side and trying to work the computer I'm using a set of whole different muscles or it could just be the cold weather.

The open house yesterday were really well for my mom, I think she got about five or six offers but finally accepted one last night.  The buyers are a couple and the wife has MS so they will be able to enjoy the access like amenities, since it's not legal ADA we cannot call the house accessible but as long as it works for them that is awesome.  Yesterday as they were showing our house my mom and I went out to dinner at Holders Country inn, pretty much our favorite place to eat these days.

Madonna just called and she's not feeling good so it looks like I'm stuck in bed today.  I really do need to get my car washed and get gas and pack up some of my DVDs to send to my brother so it's a perfect opportunity.

Charlie and Terrie came by last night and told me that the cabinets are all in and the granite will be in by Sunday, Sunday I get to go back and see everything again.  Tomorrow I go to purchase my appliances and look at some ceiling fans and lights.  Itis really all coming together.

Thursday...

Do you ever have a silly song that gets stuck in your head all day and no matter what you try you cannot get rid of it?  That is so annoying.  All day yesterday I was singing... "Well I was shopping for a new car, which ones me, a cool convertible or an SUV to bad I didn't know my credit was whack because I'm driving off the lot in a used subcompact, F R E E that spells free credit report.com baby.  Saw their ads on my TV thought about going but was too lazy.  Now instead of looking fly and rolling phat my legs are sticking to the vinyl in my posse's getting laugh at".  I tried music, the TV and even talking on the telephone and my chat room, but nothing worked...now YOU try getting getting it out of YOUR head ha ha.

Yesterday Brodie's trainer let her go in the dog run with four other dogs and everything went great.  All she did was walk around and sniffed everything but the dogs behind.  It is nice to know that she can visit with other dogs but she still cannot be around cats and that is pretty much why I hired the dog trainer.  I guess I assumed that since he said he would help me he would help me but he kept asking me to produce a cat, if I or anybody else I knew had a cat it definitely wouldn't be around too much because MY DOG HATES CATS, make sense?

I was cleaning out my house to take some stuff to a friend who lives in a disabled complex and has a lot of people there that would love to have my extra "stuff" but pretty much everything got cleaned out before I could get it to him.  When my caregivers found out that I was getting rid of everything they took it.  Which probably is better because the open houses this weekend and I really don't have anywhere to store the stuff until I can get it to the complex.  Today I'm going to clean out the little refrigerator and freezer and Madonna, my morning caregiver, is going to take that.  My house looks good but I'm a little sad, it's always hard to get rid of stuff when you're a pack rat but I'm learning.

Santa Cruz...

I really missed the support chat room on AOL and they keep saying that I'm going to go back and opened it up every night again and they do for a couple of nights, and I really do have a good time, but then I forget about it.  I met Char in there a couple of nights ago and we decided to meet in there every night at 5 p.m., 8 p.m. her time, and so far so good.  We is to have such a good time in there and meet a lot of really cool people.  We got reacquainted with some old friends and we have met some new friends and so far so good.  Since I'm not able to go to the support group at Valley Medical Center anymore this is the next best thing.  I guess it's even better because when I moved to Santa Cruz I can take it with me.

Today I finally get to go check out my house.  I'm so excited that I cannot sleep.  It is going to be a lot different than the last time I saw it and I know it's going to blow me away.  The tiling is done in my bathroom's and the cupboards are in my moms place and the rest will just all be a nice surprise.

Terrie, Charlie's wife, is going to go.  She is making me a quilt.  She asked me what theme I wanted and I told her lighthouses.  I have a quilt that she made me and it is gorgeous, she does such a great job.  I have always loved lighthouses and since I'm moving to Santa Cruz it is perfect.  My bathroom here has everything lighthouses.  She said that she just made one with lighthouses for my aunt so hopefully I will be able to see that today also.

Wow, the house in Santa Cruz looks AWESOME.  I expected it to look smaller since they put up the sheetrock and painted but it actually looks bigger.  I LOVE the title that Charlie picked out and they have the cabinets in and it looks unbelievable, there is definitely going to be a lot of room in the closet's and a lot of storage for my supplies.  I am more excited than ever after seeing it today and I can't believe that soon I will be living there.  The neighbors came over to say hello and Brodie got to meet their dog, Yoda.  I think they're going to be able to be really good friends. We got there about 9:30 am and by the time we were finished looking at the house we went over and woke up my aunt and my uncle.  They are going to go work on their property on Elm Street and then my aunt is coming over here to spend the night and take my mom for her cataract operation in the morning, I know my mom will be so glad to be able to see it again.

Familiar faces from the past...

Valentine's Day was really nice.  They close down the Bold Night, a restaurant that was down the street and had really good food.  Instead now they have a buffet restaurant there and they had a grand opening and I wanted to go but I didn't get to, I will go next time my brother comes to visit.  I did get a Valentine card from my friend Rick, he's always so thoughtful and seems to remember everything.  I ended up going grocery shopping and running around with Brodie at the park.

Last night and the night before I hung out in my old chat room and had a really good time, I always do but I keep forgetting about it.  I actually met a girl that lives in the Santa Cruz area, she's very funny and very active.  I just know that when I moved to Santa Cruz I'm going to be very busy and extremely happy.  I'm going on Monday to check out the progress, my aunt says that the title in the bathroom is being laid and the cupboards are in in my mom's place.

Today I'm going to go to Macy's and finally after all these years be fitted for the right size and type of bra that is right for me.  I seen a couple of shows where they keep saying how important it is to be fitted by a professional so that the girls don't always end up in my lap.

I started out at Victoria's Secret's to see if they could help me find the right bra but there wasn't anybody around to help, usually when you go there there's at least two or three people following you a round.  I decided to go down to Macy's to see if I would have better luck but on the way I saw Fredericks of Hollywood, I have seen it before but I heard that it was trashier stuff than Victoria's Secret's so I never went inside.  I heard wrong because they have really very nice stuff and as soon as I walked in a lady walked up to see if I needed anything moved and I saw the measuring tape around her neck so I asked her for help and she gladly obliged.  She measured me and told me what size bra I needed and picked out a couple for me to try.  I saw one that I really liked and she told me that it was a water bra so I just had to try it.  I saw an episode of Will and Grace where Grace tried one and it sprung a leak while she was at an art exhibit so how could I resist trying it?

After I left Fredericks of Hollywood I thought I heard someone calling my name so I turned a round to look and it was a guy that I worked with at Xicor.  His name is Barry.  He handed me the telephone and said that somebody wanted to say hello and I recognize the voice immediately as John Dutra.  John Dutra and I were really good friends when I worked at Xicor.  I used to sit in his office and talk to him and we used to go out and have lunch.  When I moved here he came to my house warming and I told him that I was getting ready to move again and he said he would come to my house warming in Santa Cruz.  I couldn't hear him very well because I was on Barry's flip cell phone and I kept dropping it so I told him that I would e-mail him.  I talked to Barry for a while and had to go so I told him that I would e-mail him also.  It is so cool to get together with people that I used to work with and reminisce, remembering the people back then puts a big smile on my face.  We talked about how great it would be to have a little Xicor reunion.  I'm starting to get in touch with more and more people and I forget how much fun they all were.  I was thinking about it last night and I think before I move I'm going to get a hold of as many people from Xicor as I can, with the help of friends that I kept in touch with, and have a barbecue here, it will be so great to see everybody.

Tiling the bathroom...

I was sitting here thinking back to the first time when I was seeing a psychologist.  I remember he asked me to write down what I wanted, my perfect life.  I wrote that I would like to have a place big enough for family and friends to come and I would have room for them all and most importantly I wanted a place where they could just come in and feel at home.  I not only have that now but when I move to Santa Cruz it will be even better.  It seems like my life is now as I always dreamed it would be.

When I was living in the Independent living Center, before I got my settlement or even knew that I was going to get one, I would look through the paper and roll around and look at the houses for sale and dream of owning my own place.  There was never an amount discussed and after all that time I really didn't think that I would get anything.  It was fun hanging out with Jim, he was my attorney that specialize in tires and airplanes, and I really learned a lot.  I never thought any of my dreams would come true.

Today was a nice relaxing day.  I cruised Brodie around and Rich, the dog trainer, came and walked Brodie around trying to find a cat.  I told him that Brodie pulled a muscle in my arm the day before trying to get after a cat.  Of course he did see one sitting in the driveway across the street but Brodie did nothing, it always happens that way.

My Aunt called and said that she just went across the street and they had just finished tiling one of the bathrooms and she said that it looks incredible, I cannot wait to go see it on Monday.

Out of my cave...

It sure did feel good to FINALLY get outside and it was a beautiful day.  Both Brodie and I were thrilled about getting out and running around the park for a while, we did it twice.  When nobody is around I have a certain lease that I'd put on Brodie so I can have her jump in my lap and I can grab it and slip it around the top part of my arm and take it off when I get home so she's not hope to meet all the time.  I guess I knew in the back of my mind that this was not a good idea and one day I was going to be sorry, today was the day.  As we were walking around the park Brodie saw a cat and took out after it and just about four me out of my chair, I knew right away that my arm was going to be sore.  I think it just pulled a muscle in my arm and I will be good as new in a couple of days.  It figures that as soon as I get out of the bed and able to go outside I hurt something, it hurts to even get dressed/undressed but I can handle it.  I have definitely been through worse.

I went shopping at Costco, on an empty stomach again, and wanted everything that I saw.  I don't know if it was because I was hungry or because I was so glad to get out and do something.  I'm just so glad that I finally got my fruit and stuff for my salads.

Finally...

I was reading online that playing games is good for your memory which I love to hear because I love Pogo.  The bad news is I also read that staring at the computer a lot is not good for your eyes so try to figure out a way to balance that out, there's always the bad with the good.

I've been talking to his many people as I can and trying to figure out a bed/mattress that would be good for me.  I have always had a problem with pressure sores mainly because I'm always on my butt.  Obviously in my chair I am but a bed I am also and as I am getting older I cannot lay on my side anymore, for some reason my body start sweating and it continues all night long.  That cannot be a good sign.  They don't get beyond stage one and I do heal quickly but they are constant.

Rich and Vanessa came by this morning and brought baby Luana she is so tiny and adorable and smells good, I got to hold her.  I cannot believe how great Vanessa looks, you would never know she just had a baby two weeks ago.  Of course Rich was a proud father, he just loves babies.

I called Rehab Specialist AGAIN this morning and still haven't heard anything.  I hear so many good things about them and yet I'm having a really bad experience.  I hope that my chair is done in time for Aiesha to pick it up before she leaves to go home at 5 p.m... I can't believe that they just called and said that my chair is ready, oh happy day.  Tomorrow I get to go to Costco and take this poor dog to the dog park.

Without my chair until Monday...

Well it looks like I'm going to be without my chair until Monday, I hope I can keep my sanity that long.  My neighbor told me EXACTLY what was wrong with the chair and showed my mom so that she could show them when she took it in for me.  They told me on Tuesday that they could not pick it up until Friday so I called back on Wednesday and asked them if I brought it in could I get it fixed faster and I said yes and may be an appointment for Thursday at 9:30 a.m., I figured it would be done by the time Aiesha came into work Thursday at 1 p.m. but I did not hear anything.  I called them at about 2 p.m. and left a message but they never called me back.  I didn't hear anything on Friday so I called them at 3:00 p.m. and left another message.  Finally the repair guy called me at 4:35 p.m., they close at 5 p.m. and are close all weekend, and told me that he could not find anything wrong with my chair.  I told him that Keith said the thick wire that goes into the motor has a bride pig's tale plug, could I be any more helpful?  He said that he will fix it and I will hear from him later.  Keith told me that he had a project next couple of days but if my chair was still not working I could fix it on Friday morning, I should have let Keith fix it.

I wrote an e-mail to the guy who helped me pick out a new chair, from the same company, and told them that I was having problems and that this is EXACTLY why I quit using the company I previously used and I hope this is not going to be a continuous problem.

My Aunt Kathy came over today and told me the cutest story about the new baby.  They have a dog, a Mastiff, named Tater and apparently the dog is very tuned in to when the baby poops.  Every time the baby poops the dog runs over and sniffs the baby and then runs over to Rich and sits down in front of him and stares at him until he goes over and changes the baby, how cute is that?  I think Tater is only two or three months old, I believe they got him for Christmas.

Convincing Medicare...

The only thing I can think of that is worse than being frustrated is being frustrated and stuck in bed.  I have a really good mattress on my bed but the bed frame is just not made for the mattress which makes the mattress not work as it should so needless to say I keep getting pressure ulcers.  They don't get very bad and the heel very quickly but they are constant.  I've been talking with a guy at Hill ROM and he found me a couple of frames that go with the mattress that I have but of course Medicare does not want to pay for the one that I need and I don't know how to convince them how much I need it.  The one that I need is electric and it has Trendelenburg and reverse Trendelenburg and the one that Medicare thinks I need has a crank, the only way that would work is if I could teach Brodie, my service dog, how to work a crank and I don't think that's going to happen.  I don't know what to do and I don't know anything about Medicare.  I have talked to people before that pretty much know how to word everything to Medicare so that they can get whatever they want by making it a need instead of a want.  I'm going to try to make an appointment with Dr. Shem next week and hopefully she can help me.

They were supposed to fix my chair at 9:30 a.m. this morning and I was hoping that by the time Aiesha got here it would be done so she could go and pick it up for me so I could get out and do something tomorrow, that did not happen.  I called them about 1:30 p.m. and left a message but I never heard anything back, I'm really not surprised but I was still hoping.  I will give them a call again in the morning and hopefully it will be ready for my mom or Madonna to pick up.

My mom got an offer on her house and they did all the paperwork today, all they need to do is wait and see if the funding is going to be there, one house down and went to go.

Familiar faces...

I had a really surprisingly good day today.  I thought I was going to be really cranky because I've been stuck in his bed for so long but the day went by really fast.  I called Rehab Specialist and asked them if I brought my chair in early if I could get it fixed any sooner and they said yes, if I bring it in this afternoon they will set me up with a 9:30 a.m. appointment tomorrow morning, so tomorrow when Aiesha gets here at 1 p.m. she can go and pick it up for me.

I need to go Friday and purchase the kitchen appliances for my new place and it will be SO nice to get out of this bed and out into the world once again.

The realtor called my mom this morning and wanted to show her house again.  After they looked at my mom's house they came by to look at mine, the realtor knocked on the door to see if it was okay and I told him to come on in.  It was a gentleman and his parents, his parents live in Lake Tahoe and he wants them here so he can take care of them and not have to worry.  I kept looking at the guy because he looked so familiar and then it dawned on me, it was Jim of Jim and Brenda.  They come by every two or three months to play cribbage with our cribbage group, it just kind of threw me a little bit because I wasn't expecting to see him and I couldn't think of where I knew him from.  It made me realize that I'm ready for another cribbage night.  His parents are the sweetest couple and I really think that they would love it here.

Rich, the dog trainer, came buy today to work with Brodie on the treadmill, yes my yuppie puppy has a treadmill.  I need to get her to stay on that longer without somebody standing there watching her and she did pretty good today.  We're going to work on it for a couple more weeks and life will be perfect once again.

Cabin fever...

I called my doctor's office this morning and left a message that I was without my chair and could they please return the fax to Rehab Specialist so I wouldn't be without my chair too much longer and Aline called me back this afternoon and said that she had already sent it, she is such a neat lady and truly caring.  I called rehab Specialist and she said that she did have the fax and she was getting ready to call me and tell me that they could pick up my chair on Friday.  Without thinking I thanked her and then hung up without asking if I brought my chair in tomorrow morning would it be fixed faster so I will call her back tomorrow and ask, I don't know if I could stand 3 X more days without my chair without going insane... I'm sure those 2 cups of coffee that I had, with caffeine, are not helping.

Pat, the realtor for both my mom and I came by this morning and said that we both got an offer on our house.  Pat showed my mom's house this morning at 10 a.m. and she said the lady loved everything about it and wants to make an offer before anybody else does.  About a month ago a couple came by to look at my place and I happened to be sitting on the porch so they asked if they could come in and look.  Their daughters husband has the beginning stages of MS and although he's doing really good now sooner or later he will need the ramp and the lift.  The daughter came by and looked at it and when she told her husband about it he didn't want to hear it, he was not ready to accept the fact that he was going to need them.  Apparently she talked him into it and they made me an offer.  It looks like by the time we sell our places the new place is going to be done, perfect timing.

Charlie called me this afternoon and said that they are getting ready to title next week so we can go order the appliances on Friday, if I have my chair back...cross your fingers.

AARRGGHH...

Well I almost made it into my van before my chair died again.  I was loading into my van, getting ready to go to my dentist appointment when my chair just clicked and stopped moving.  Of course there was nobody around and my mom was down at the clubhouse playing cards, at least it wasn't raining.  I called my mom and she came down to try to fix it as she did a couple of nights before but it would not work.  We call the office and all the maintenance guys were outrunning errands and they suggested we call 911 and have the firemen push me up the ramp into my house.  When that looked like the only option left Keith drove up, might hero.  He took it apart and said that one of the connectors was fried so he straightened out one of the prongs and I was able to drive up the ramp and into my house.  I really wanted to go to the store or to Costco but I didn't dare chance it and have to call Keith to rescue me twice in one day so I just went back to bed.

The last time I broke down I called Rehab Specialist and they were trying to track down my doctor to get a prescription to fix my chair when I called him back and told them that my mom fixed it and I would not need to bring it in.  I had to call them back and apologize and tell them that I needed to get it fixed after all.  If they're unable to get a hold of Dr. Shem I will call over there tomorrow and see what I can do, I hope this isn't going to take very long.

It looks like tomorrow is another day of staying in bed and watching movies, it's amazing how much I take my chair for granted when it is working, I am definitely going to keep this one as a backup.

Cabin fever

This is my cousin on the left with his new baby.  You can see how proud he is and the whole family feels the same way, even the dog.  The guy on the right is his best friend.  Back in 95 when I had my accident he was an intern at Valley Medical Hospital.  For the first couple of days they were not saying what condition I was in or what was going to happen, probably because they did not know.  My cousin called him and asked him if he could check on me and let him know how I was doing.  I don't remember him from the hospital but I got to meet him when Rich and Vanessa got married.

I have been stranded in this bed since Thursday so I cannot wait to get out tomorrow and do something.  Unfortunately I have a dentist appointment but after that I'm going to take Brodie to the dog park so we can both run around.

Today was a nice relaxing day.  On Sundays my mom and I like to order pizza and watch a movie on pay-per-view, today we watched Underdog, it was a very very good movie.

Finally Friday...

I finally got my chair fixed today, not in time to get up but I will have it for next week.  After my mom trying to fix it last night and Madonna trying to fix it this morning, both of them very mechanically inclined, my mom figured it out.  I spent most of the day on the phone with Rehab Specialist trying to get a doctor's prescription so they could make the appointment to fix it.

Angie came by tonight with some paint samples for the outside of my new house in Santa Cruz.  At first I was looking at kind of a sage color but my neighbor right across the street had the exact color that I wanted so I'm going to go with gray.

A friend of Lynn's, the OT at Valley Medical who helped me pick out Mike's new chair, introduced me to a lady that wanted to check out Multimedia Max. she can buy today for a couple of hours and we had a really nice visit, why is it that I am meeting all these really nice people when I'm getting ready to move?

I'm sitting here watching celebrity rehab with Dr. Drew and it is so heartbreaking.  I keep asking myself why am I watching it but I can't seem to turn the channel.  For some reason I started watching celebrity gossip channels like TMZ, Inside Edition, Entertainment Tonight.  I get mad at other people who dwell on celebrities pain troubles that they go through but I myself watch it, what is up with that?